I know I shouldn't complain but....

Sometimes I just get sick of everything. I get sick of therapy, doctor appointments, specialist, the school system, dealing with behaviors that I know the kids can't help, just plain out sick. I know some parents are dealing with so much more than I am so who am I to complain. My children are healthy, for the most part, they don't have life threatening conditions, they haven't had multiple surgeries, they don't have specialized medical equipment. I should be happy that my children are physically healthy. But sometimes I am sick of having so many appointments crammed into one week that I can't keep them straight. I am sick of running here and there and everywhere. I am sick of worrying about my children and their futures. I am sick of my son's father not helping out but still thinking that he is a good dad because he pays child support. I am sick of doctors, specialists, and therapist (though they all have been super nice and great with the kids), I am just sick of needing them. I am sick of worrying about what condition or disorder that my children will be diagnosed with next. I am sick of having to explain behaviors to family member's and hoping they will understand why my children act the way they do. I am sick of knowing more about my children's conditions than most doctor's do. I am sick of waiting rooms. I am sick of people who just don't understand. I am sick of appoligizing for my children's behaviors when they do something to other people or their kids. I am sick of doing therapy at home. I guess I just need to get it all off my chest. I will never stop anything that I am doing because it all benefits my children but some days, not very often, it just becomes alot.

Now here is the good part. I am thankful that my children are physically fine. I am thankful that my children never had to stay in the hospital. I am thankful that my children have never needed surgery. I am thankful that my children are responding well to therapy. I am thankful that my children's conditions are considered mild. I am thankful that my children don't require medical equipment. I am thankful that there are therapies that benefit my children. I am thankful that there are support groups out there. I am thankful that I have support from my family and friends. I am thankful that I have an awesome roomie who helps me out. I am thankful that because of my children and their disorders/conditions I am a better person. I am thankful that I have so much support from my tribe and other wonderful people who go out of their way to help out. I am thankful that my children are improving each and every day. I am thankful that I found a meetup group so I can talk to others face to face. I am thankful that I know that I am not the only one going through any of this. I am thankful that I am pretty healthy and don't have major health problems of my own to worry about. And most of all, I am thankful for each and every moment I have with my children. They are why I push so hard, and why I am who I am today. They teach me so much everyday and I am thankful that they are here and who they are.